That Urge Again

I've done it before...and I said I wouldn't do it it again w/o thinking first, but its tugging at me bad. I don't know if its my frustration w/ one situation or my dream pulling me in another direction....Its strong though. This time wouldn't be like last time where I did it based on principle...this time it would be simply for me to stop being scared to just live. Failure is in not trying. I say that all the time. So many thoughts cross my mind...will they get me, will they laugh, will my pride be hurt, will I win...Well, Stefany you won't know unless you try...Im trying to subside this urge to quit my job cause I feel its taking time away from me doing what I'm called to do.....pray with and for me...